Time Flies

Well it's been quite awhile since I have posted. Lots of things happening in my life, my kids being home for summer vacation, working during the daylight hours, opening a new restaurants, taking care of our bulldogs and the house. We lost one of our bullies two weeks ago. Our male Mac was outside, and just collasped and died. We are not sure what happened to him, the worst thing is my son was the one who found him. He went out to see why Romeo was barking and barking but would not come in the house, saw Mac laying next to the garage and called out for him. Fear rushed to his heart he told me as he approached him, calling out, "Mac! Mac!" Rick and I were both at the restaurants and we received a frantic phone call, Mac is dead, Mac is dead. I rushed home, and wanted to keep it together, help my kids, but as soon as I got about two blocks from my home, I burst into tears and was a mess. Our house is much quieter without the big boy, and I do miss my live teddy bear. We had a funeral for him, Ricky wanted everyone to say alittle something about Mac. Calla was sobbing softly and could not speak, I said a few words, how Mac was never really a gentleman for if you bent down to talk to him he would leap up and head butt you as a greeting of hello and then Ricky spoke....."Even though Mac was a knucklehead, we loved him and he was apart of our family"

The sound came out, you formed your words they hit my ear and pierced my heart, say whatever you like, give it all to me, get it all out in your liquored state, don’t hold back, tell me everything, why you are they way you are, how it has happened, what has caused you to be that way , but remember that we have all been thru struggles, we all have our demons to deal with and mine are not different from yours, my hurt is the same, my heartache just as real, just as painful, why is it always all about you
You speak of trust, how you can’t, won’t, don’t have the ability to, but what about my trust, I trusted you, told you my secrets just to have you store them away and stack them against me later, the betrayal is familiar, I've felt it before, thought I was smarter now though, but have been caught with my heart open and your words slicing I am once again the fool

Update

My mom is doing better. They will go to Florida tomorrow to relax and enjoy the sunshine. All my siblings including myself were worried about them leaving NY. No one will be down there to help them........you can't tell your parents what to do!!!!! They just don't listen!!

Introducing Tattoo Bar-B-Que Rick and his brother Jeff are opening a new restaurant tonight! They have been working hard for weeks to get ready!! Good Luck Boys, I love you both!
Posted by Lisa

I've been sitting here online for a bout an hour, sorting through my emails, visiting blogs, with Bugs Bunny and Elmer Fudd in the background. All of a sudden I hear lots of kissing and smacking sounds, I look over and my boy is sitting with the "puppy" (Romeo will be three is a few weeks) and he is holding the dogs face in his hands and kissing him all over his smouched muzzle!!!!! The look on Romy's face was priceless!!! All sweet and loving accepting the love from his boy!

On Monday the 13th my Mom had to go back into the hospital. Her lungs were filled with fluid and she had a horrible cough. They started intravenous antibiotics to help her heal from pneumonia and bronchitis. The killer was her primary doctor was out of town, and her cardiologist did not want to admit her under his care. So basically she had no doctor to ask questions, or get any help from. Finally a doctor at the hospital took her under his wing and would come up and visit her, answer any questions and fill out her chart. She was released on Friday and is feeling better. That poor woman has been through so much in the last few months, I feel so bad for her. I went and made her my turkey soup, made sure she had all her prescriptions filled and helped her around the house. She is so funny, she had alittle list of things she needed to get done, so I made sure all were finished before I went home. I feel like I have been going nonstop for months now........................................................................ We have a winter blues bash dinner tonight, buffet dinner, open bar with a DJ. I am so looking forward to just cutting loose, dancing and laughing with my friends. I have a new outfit that I bought at a store closing in Jan.......so that part is taken care of!

OMG! What a cluster fuck of a week!!!!!! Last Tuesday at about 6:50am I got a call from my Dad. My mom has had another heart attack and is in the hospital. He sounded horrible and I could barely understand what he was saying, but I did make that out. I rushed up to the hospital and she was just getting ready to be taken for an angeogram. She was still in alot of pain and I should of never even bothered to put on my mascara as it was cried off my face.......They give you a cell phone to let you know when the procedures are done and the outcome. So we waited and then got the call. No blocked arteries, must be stress. This news caused an avalanche of blame......My sister being upset at my father, he has been pretty miserable, which is understandable. So here we are in the waiting room, talking and finger pointing indirectly happening, I am just silent, I can not take much more, I just cry..........I have not idea how it happened, I went to two appointments with my Dad, on two different days, spent hours at the hospital with my Mom but was still able to get in 40 hours at the flower shop, we are trying to get ready for Valentine's Day. They put in a defibulator/pacemaker and sent her home on Friday. She did well until Sat night and then got very sick, puking with dry heaves.....I felt like it was a reaction from the anesthesia, but could not get any meds to help her. Her cardiologist wanted her to go back to the hospital???? OK, lets see, I can get you a prescription for some meds, or have her go back in?? Yeah, go back in??? I was furious!!!!!! The doctor on call was at Chuckie Cheese when I he called my cell!!!!!! He was yelling at his kid, CHELSEA YOU HAVE TO WAIT YOUR TURN!!!!! Kids were screaming and yelling in the background, I thought it was some kind of dream.......My mom is now feeling better, she was able to keep down some soup last night. I now have two days of rose hell on my hands with Valentine's Day tomorrow. But I hope she gets the orders she needs to get rid of her 6000 (Six thousand!!!) roses!!!!!!! Please send prayers and good thoughts for me and my family at this time, we need it!

Well, it's been a long time since I have blogged. Too long I think, I wonder if anyone ever comes by anymore.
I have been dealing with my father and his illness, not well I might add. He is very sick, lost almost 15 pounds and was never ever overweight. He has had the treatments and now is really sick. I have surfed, searched and read, tried to find help for him, tried to take him to the hospital a few weeks back, he refused to go. We are all crying so much, I think about him constantly, hoping that this will work, that will make him better. Nothing.......
I have a teenager that I live with, this has been quite fun---- NOT! It seems like everyday it is something else that she has said or done. Same shit different day.
My work is good, I enjoy the flower shop and now have become her part time help. It is just a few hours per week, I am still at the production company too.
I went to see a play last weekend Smoky Joes Cafe in Lancaster NY. My friends nephew is studying to be an actor and Niagara University and got a his first paying gig! There were 8 people in the show, 4 females, 4 males and they all did great! I did not know it was all music, no dialogue, but had a great time!